Help

Im having what I call a "Bad Night". They used to happen once a month or so but they are becoming more and more recent. It starts with a panic attack, which I am used to having, but then my mind takes a turn for the worst. I start thinking about suicide, I put blades to my wrist I pop pills. Every time I do something to hurt myself I cover it with an accident. I am so lost, I have no one to talk to and I am scared... so scared. I am all alone. I need someone before I finally convince myself this life I live would be better off cut short.
Lifeisbettershort Lifeisbettershort
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1 Response Jan 6, 2013

you are having a bad night, not a bad life. you are worth more than gold and you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it! things honestly do get better, you can make it better even though it doesn't seem like it right now. talk to someone, maybe see a doctor about your panic attacks because sometimes it has a medical history to it and that is by no means your fault at all! bad things happen to good people, and dear you are worth so soo soo much! don't take away a life, i want you here, and i know that i am not the only one. you are beautiful and you are worth a life filled with love and happiness, and sometimes things take time. life may not be perfect now, but know that one day you will look back and thank yourself for not taking your life, one day other people will thank you for not taking your life, and know that i am thankful for you staying on this earth. sure people can be mean, hurtful, they can leave you lonely and sad but you are better than that, i know you are. you can take your negative experiences and dwell on them and let them run your life...or you can turn them around and learn from them. Know that you want to be better than those things that hurt you, turn your life around, don't let them effect you! You are so much better than that, positivity is contagious, find something to be happy about, it can be as simple as the fact that you are alive, that you are a fighter, that you are strong, that you haven't fallen through the cracks by letting other people run your life. you are so precious, and worth so much and know that even if you don't believe in God i will be praying for you, and i know that your life will get better! I've been there and life is much better letting God decide when you go, he's got a plan for you bigger than you could ever be! Get ready cause it will be great! You will be blessed my dear, I am blessed for being able to read and respond to this! I love you, and I know I'm not alone in that!