Need Help

1 year ago i was sexul aboused. Ever since i cant stop thinking about it.The person that did it was not put in jail,the juge said i didn't give enough info about what his privite looked like or felt. I was so upset i started to hurt me self (cuting my self punching and joking) I even had severl atemps to kill my self. I feel like im just not wanted or needed in this world any more i want to die. It was my moms boyfriend that did it to me and she didn't even believe me. Now she doesn't want any thing to do with me. Because to her, I am a mastake. I don't know what to do. I really can't do it any more i fear i may be done. so what should i do?
I am 13 my name is Haley and i dont know why god put me on this earth to only feel pain all the time im DONE.
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2 Responses Jan 23, 2013

Haley, Please, don't do anything to harm yourself!!! We were all put here on this earth for a reason and I whole heartily believe that. :) I can understand what your going through. I had a rough childhood and teenage years. Never feeling that I fit in the world or that I was liked by anyone. That everyone used me. I felt like I was never good enough for my family. I do have to say that the way your mother is treating you is childish. She's the adult and should believe what you tell her and stand by you. A lot of bad things happen to Good people. It's getting through it and it molding you into a stronger, better person with success in your life. You can have the things you want in life but you do have to work for them. Hang in there!! Try to work through it the best you can and find people that you can trust and talk to, to lean on. Do everything that you physically can for you and God will take care of the rest. It may take you some time to find out why you were put here, but it will happen one day out of the blue and will change your life. It happened for me last June!! Stay positive and be around positive, supportive people who love you for you!! HUGS

keep your head up, things will get better. I have to give you credit for the strength you had to go through all that. Haley, if you feel threaten any way call the police. You can get past this. The world keeps going around even although we don't feel it moving. You're NOT a mistake, and you are not done. I have no doubt, the sun will come out.