It Really Does Get Better.

You could've told me this every day since the beginning, and I never would've believed you. But it's so true. A few months ago I was done. I was ready to end it all. I lost track of my scars. I abused alcohol. I made irresponsible decisions. Stood a little too close to the ledge, a little too close to the train tracks. But slowly, I began to finally realize that I was meant for something more. I wish I could explain the moment I knew, but it wasn't a moment. It was a progression. A progression of ideas and hope that ultimately woke me up. I got more serious about therapy. I stopped drinking. I worked harder to stop the bleeding. It was so difficult, I won't lie, but every day without these decisions is a step in the right direction. Even if you relapse, you still had those days where you fought. You fought so hard because you knew you wanted to get better. And you will. It's only been a month but I already feel so much better. I feel stronger. I struggled for 8 years, and I want it to remain that way. In the past, a memory. A reminder of how strong I really am. It really does get better. I promise.
jln20 jln20
22-25
2 Responses May 12, 2013

We need to hear more stories like these. i am happy for you. stay strong

Congratulations! I'm proud of you! And millions of others would be aswel. There's so much more to life! And I assure you, it will get better everyday, and you will be more proud of yourself everyday!!! Please stay strong.