I Need Someone to Talk to Right Now
Almost 26 years old and I'm still losing myself... still don't understanding me...
When things are not totally perfect sometimes this weird feeling goes over me and then I can not do nothing to fight it.
Suddenly it just poses me. I just i'm not able to enjoy nothing and i just have the need to cry even not knowing a reason.
The little tinny stupid things cause me just to want to dissapear and i feel just stupid for that.
And I really try to fight it, I put my lollipop music as loud as possible. I sing, I play my guitar. Screaming, louder and louder. Trying not to hear myself. And sometimes for a moment I'm able to avoid the feealing.
But then another tinny little thing (the one now is my since a month ago ex boyfriend [after having pass the last 10 years together] saying the happy that is right now and that stuff) makes me to fell in the abisms again.
And I know myself, I know how I am and the things I can do if I feel this way... and it's scary... so I try to find a friend to talk... but I'm new in this country and I have not, and the ones from my country are now just my ex friends, so I have not friends back at home... and is even worse...
So I write desseperated on google: I need someone to talk... And this forum appears...
