A Big Problem

I am an 18 year old male and I need somebody to talk to about a problem I am trying to deal with. I have a pretty good life, a great girlfriend, and college to look forward to. But ever since I can remember I've always wanted to be a clown. I want to bring joy and happiness wherever I can take it, this is my number one goal in life. With that being said it has also been my number one problem. I find myself unsure, doubtful, and embarassed. I have only told one person in my entire life this secret and that's my girlfriend. She is the best thing that's ever happened to me and I have always felt more comfortable with her than anybody else. I am in love with her, but when I told her this she didn't look at me any different. In fact she supports me no matter what, but I feel compelled to tell my parents. I don't want to keep this a secret from them, but I am terrified about how they will react. I don't want to disappoint them, I care about them too much. But I can't go on living my life like this doesn't matter. Because it is the one thing I have always wanted to do. It's my dream and I have no intentions of never following through with it. But I don't want my life to be kept secret from my parents. If anybody has words of wisdom or has been here before. Please talk with me, thanks.
camtron55 camtron55
18-21, M
2 Responses Jul 19, 2010

Just tell them. You got your own life to live. Yes they might be disappointed but they well get over it. It's not the worst thing you could be doing.

Hello out there! I am a 37 year old women who has a 18 year old son who does not talk to me because of parental alienation. I have been through so much in my life and i just lost my job and was searching for someone to understand me and what is happening to me when i ran acrsoss your post. I know that i am no one to you but it sounds like you are a good person and you have a wonderful girlfriend, consider yourself blessed! Parents love there children more than you will ever knoow, I think sharing with them who you are will make your relationship even closer and if for some reason it does not them shame on them! You have nothing to be ashamed of! Hope