Living In A Time Of Lost

I feel that I am living in a time of lost. Lost job, lost friends, lost apt, lost time and lost love. I carry this feeling with me throughtout my days and my nights and its heavy. I lost my job last year and had to move out of my apartment that I loved so much. Yes there are positive things that occured as a result but its hard to let go of things I treasured dearly. The loss of my apartment and job triggered other sad thoughts in my psyche. My first love we broke up and more than two years later there is stlll a part of me that aches for him. Even when I belived I was over him. I met someone else and got engaged but we are seperating. As for friends, well I sort of isolated myself from them when I lost my job. I am not so sure most of them want to be friends anymore and I also not sure if I want them. sometimes its easier to pick up and start again.As ridiculous as it sounds I find solace in one stupid old sitcom that I love dearly. "The golden girls" I am not sure exactly why these ladies stroke a cord with me. I am not even remotely close to their age level but the show makes me happy. I own all the DVDs and I've watched them religiously I know its weird but I just love their relationship together. I watch and I wish I had friends like that, ones who do comfort, understand and are just there for them whenver they need them.
serendipityarb serendipityarb
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3 Responses Aug 5, 2010

hello .sunshine!! you don't have to worry that much ...and always look at the bright side of the life..moreover grace to simple thingsin life we enjoy our moments even the whole life ...

hello .sunshine!! you don't have to worry that much ...and always look at the bright side of the life..moreover grace to simple thingsin life we enjoy our moments even the whole life ...

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