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But I Can't Open Up To It...

I just can't. I feel like I already know what someone would say so why bother.
Kindal Kindal 46-50, F 29 Responses Aug 27, 2010

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maybe you can help me, maybe I am naive but what kind of site is this, I like to talk and help people, wrong site?


I suffer from the same conflict. I'm so lonely and desperately want to talk to someone, but I have isolated myself for so long and kept everyone beyond arms reach, and I just don't feel like I could open up even if there were someone within reach.

i feel the same way.

I'm so lost when everything is perfect. I want to tap into myself but cant....

I know exactly how you feel

Thanks Jenni. I know you will always be there honey. I believe in you and you know if you ever need me i'm here for you as well. Now i can see a bit clearer and not worry so much. xoxo

I am so happy that someone figured it out my sweet Kindy and let you talk about it! Sometimes just getting someone else's opinion and feedback can make a problem seem more easy to overcome. If no ever need to chat, I am here for you too my beautiful friend! hugs, Jenni

Actually I didn't reach out, she figured it out and came to me lol. I was caught red handed. Darn her! :) Thanks.

Well it's great you reached out and are going to get more help. *hugs*

Kris that is so true. I did reach out tonight finally and got some great feedback. I'm glad it's somewhat off my chest now but I still have some very difficult decisions to make that I cannot do on my own so may get help with those from a professional. :) Thanks Hugs

Kindal, <br />
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I am glad you are waiting on God for the answer.<br />
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While I believe he interacts with us, his agents and angels need your permission.<br />
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So to answer the question, you reach out because if you don't you will never know if the answer you expect is the answer you will get and sometimes that is the only way god can help.

patriotusa.........mine is not about a fetish. <br />
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Glad you felt release in talking to a stranger. Thanks for commenting

I kept my secret of my fetish to myself, except for people I would talk to online, for about 4 or 5 years. I was really lonely then. And during that time I was still going to school, hanging with some friends, had my family and even boot camp and more. It wasnt til I came back from my first deployment that I told someone face to face my secret. I love talking to complete strangers who are feeling depressed and lonely, because when I was depressed and lonely I didnt have anyone to talk to.

Doctorirwin...thanks friend.

You can tell me anything. I know that I am not here on this planet to judge others. What ever you need to get off your chest I'll listen and not think any less or more of you than I do now. Which is you are a person who is hurting on the inside. I held something in once for way to long. When I finally let it out it did not seam like that big of a deal, but I sure felt better.

Thanks destiney :)

That is why i'm contemplative rose. You guessed it honey. I also didnt sleep well last night because of it and other things so now i'm groggy. I have so much to do around the house and just can't even get myself up off the bed. It will resolve it'self in time. It's a tough decision I have to make but maybe God will intervene and make it for me or at least push me more towards what needs to happen so I know for sure that the decision I make is right. Blessings dear friend.

Is this why you are feeling a bit contemplative today? It's ok; you don't have to do anything you don't want to do and when you're ready, you're ready.

(((hugs))) No rush Kindal. You'll know when and if you are ready. This is a good place for that, but it may even resolve itself before that time. Love and prayers to you Dear.

travel, I think that's a great idea. Reaching out to others is good when you feel safe to do so.

That's how I feel everyday.I bottle up alot. I never tell anyone what I'm thinking let alone any secrets.I do have trust issues. The only person I trust is myself. It gets awfully lonely and stressful though.I've been like this my whole life. I actually physically get sick from keeping everything to myself. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth feeling ill over it. But there's another fact for right now and that's I don't have anyone to talk to at this point in my life anyway. So I must be doomed to be alone and feel ill over my own secrets, problems or issues. Hope I don't die like this.


You are right Brut. I will give that some consideration. Thanks my friend :)

No problem :-) But remember, holding things in for too long can cause a lot of problems...not good for the body, you know.<br />
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Thanks lovlies. I just have to hold onto this one for awhile. :) Thanks for being there though. Hugs.

do you need a secret keeper ;-)<br />
I am really good at keeping secrets!

yeah, it is always better to get things off your chest if you can...

You might be surprised by a person's response Kindal. Hugs