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I Want To Fall In Love..

I want to fall in love, I want to have someone that I can love and take care of. I had someone like this not to long ago, but they decided I was crazy?.. So cheated on me then left me for some other girl. It still really hurts and since everything happened my life is falling apart piece by piece. I have only ever wanted to be happy but for some reason I can't. Something always gets in the way of my happiness. I feel as if I am not normal or not like other people that here is something wrong with me. I am not that difficult of a person and now I am just left wondering what I did to make him so "Senile" (he claims that is what I made him) that he would just cheat on me. Just because I wouldn't give it up. I don't understand the reason for all the lying. If he didn't want to stay with me why didn't he just leave. I wasn't forcing him to stay. Now we don't talk at all, and I miss it more than anything. I feel so alone he was all I had at the time now I am just on my own. I feel so damn stupid for even getting involved. How do I let go of him? I want to be done getting upset when he kisses her in front of me. I am sick of living my life like nothing good will ever come again. I want to be happy and not have anger and sadness in my life. I don't know what I should do. I have never dealt with a situation like this. I don't know how to act with this, Him and her. I miss him when I shouldn't even remember his name. How do I let go, move on and forget about him. I know I don't need someone who would cheat on me and lie, so why and I still hurt and wanting him back... or his attention at least.
picture23 picture23 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 30, 2012

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Omg! He kissed her infront of you! Well, just forget him. He is not worth to be missed! Move on. Life goes on wit or without him. Hang out. Get to know more people. And enjoy your life :-)

It takes a while to let go of someone who you love even if you know letting go is the right choice. So many people have been in your position. In fact, I'm in a similar position right now. It's definitely not as bad as yours but letting go of my ex is really painful. I still talk to her everyday but I miss her every second of my life. I've been dealing with it but I'm barely passing day by day. It's hard I know. Talk to your friends about it. Just maybe 1 or 2 close friends and talk to them. If you don't want to, even just talking to your parents will help. If you want to meet new people, signing up for community service or getting a job will help. They will keep you distracted and in a few months, you will feel a lot better. If you need to talk anytime, feel free to send me a message.