I Want To Fall In Love..
I want to fall in love
, I want to have someone that I can love and take care of. I had someone like this not to long ago, but they decided I was crazy?.. So cheated on me then left me for some other girl. It still really hurts and since everything happened my life is falling apart piece by piece. I have only ever wanted to be happy but for some reason I can't. Something always gets in the way of my happiness. I feel as if I am not normal or not like other people that here is something wrong with me. I am not that difficult of a person and now I am just left wondering what I did to make him so "Senile" (he claims that is what I made him) that he would just cheat on me. Just because I wouldn't give it up. I don't understand the reason for all the lying. If he didn't want to stay with me why didn't he just leave. I wasn't forcing him to stay. Now we don't talk at all, and I miss it more than anything. I feel so alone he was all I had at the time now I am just on my own. I feel so damn stupid for even getting involved. How do I let go of him? I want to be done getting upset when he kisses her in front of me. I am sick of living my life like nothing good will ever come again. I want to be happy and not have anger and sadness in my life. I don't know what I should do. I have never dealt with a situation like this. I don't know how to act with this, Him and her. I miss him when I shouldn't even remember his name. How do I let go, move on and forget about him. I know I don't need someone who would cheat on me and lie, so why and I still hurt and wanting him back... or his attention at least.