I Need A Friend

Let's see... where to start...

I'm getting married in a few months to a person I was so sure I loved that loved me back, but now I'm feeling less passion than a rock. 
I feel like he feels the same sometimes, and mostly because his mother is trying to get between us.
He moved here a few months ago to be with me, and found a job instantaneously. Lost it, but had another one the next day.

I've been job hunting for six months now, with not so much as even an interview. 
It's frustrating and unfair. I feel like I've been trying so hard for so long, and it just falls into his lap like nothing.

My mom, who is pushing 260lbs at 5'4", is constantly calling me fat, and she uses me as a babysitter for the sixteen year old brat that she spoiled too badly for her to fend for herself, also as a maid.

I feel frustrated, angry, and sometimes I just want to die. I've had serious thoughts of killing myself, and I need someone to talk to. :T
WeMayBeMad WeMayBeMad
1 Response May 5, 2012

I can definatly tell you that you're not alone when it comes to the job struggle! It's SO hard for most people to find a job. I had to swallow my pride and take a job at a fast food place myself after having a better job for a few years that let me go. It has been difficult but a paycheck is a paycheck and you can always keep looking while you're working at a temporary job. Make sure you post resumes on job sites too, they really do help a lot of people out.<br />
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As for your mother, obviously she is picking on you out of her own insecurity like most women would do. If you havn't already, confront her about her bullying, and about her not taking the responsibility to look after your younger sister or do her own housework. If you do not live with her, there is no reason for you to put up with that kind of treatment, and if you do live with her then you guys just need a sit down. Sometimes people just need to be told up front that they're wrong.<br />
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I hope the best for you and your fiance. You two must love each other, or you would have called the engagement off by now, right? Just remember that you two are the only people you need to worry about pleasing. No one else matters in that aspect of your life.