Feel I'm At Rock Bottom

I don't know what to do any more. I was engaged with a daughter of my own and my fiancées little boy from a previous relationship happy with life. After taking her for granted now I'm out. I try my best to be that person she met the first time but I seem to alienate her more. I look at my beautiful daughter and cry. I have so many people and companies chasing me for money, I can give barely anything to help support or feed her. All my friends seem to have vanished and don't return my calls or texts. I shy away from making friends and even a social occasion with my family recently. I know I do it intentionally but I don't know why. I feel like I have no-one to talk to or get things off my chest. How do I stop being this person? I feel my life is crashing around me. My daughter is the only reason I smile right now. I still love my ex so much and would give anything to make things work again but the way things are going I will be lucky to talk to her. I don't know how to do right by anyone. I dread mail coming because I know it's going to ask for money I cannot afford and I don't even answer my phone anymore
Knowles198 Knowles198
22-25
May 6, 2012