I Did Something And I Dont Know Why

I stole money from my employer and I know it was stealing but i didnt stop it wasnt like i needed the money. and i have a great home life and loving family but i did it. and didnt stop until they confronted me and i appologized and am paying the money back but i feel nothing towards it i feel sorry for the people i stole from and what it is putting on my family but I dont feel a whole lot I feel an erge to pay them back and i am not sleeping when i think on it. but the guilty feeling i feel like i should have isnt there. I dont have shame in what i did but i should and that scares me more then anything. what if i do it again. what If i get charged and ruin my whole life because i stole money to feel something. Everyone who knows me thinks i am this perfect little person and i guess i just wanted to prove to myself it wasnt true and that isnt the way to go about it but I dont know what else to do.
maxwellgirl maxwellgirl
22-25, F
2 Responses May 18, 2012

dont worry everyone makes mistakes xx

If it is not your intentions, i think you should consult somebody to talk about it with and what compelled you to do it. If you feel like you are going to do it again, stop and think about everything and try to stop yourself.