Trapped

I feel trapped. All the time. My cage is my home and lifestyle.
I'm a stay-at-home mom - not by choice
I'm a mom - not by choice
I have been alienated by all my friends - not by choice

I'm always unhappy... but the most tragic thing is when I'm away from my family, son, husband, and home is when I'm happiest.
I'd run away and seek the happiness and fulfillment I know is somewhere out there for me, but my feet are glued in place. I cannot leave because deep down I don't want anyone to feel the way I do - especially the people I care about. And I know if I seek my own happiness, that I will hurt the only people in my life that I care about.

Why do I have to be the martyre?
AshDash89 AshDash89
22-25, F
3 Responses May 21, 2012

maybe you should tell them how you feel...i see my own mother, she is trapped into that "mother" and "wife" and "perfect daughter" thing and has lost herself and the life she could have. I'm trying to persuade her to change but I don't think she will. So, talk to your family friends, anyone that makes you feel sad, and then make a decision...i hope you'll be ok...:) and anyway, this is Your life!

Running away is not only the option for your problem... as you said you care about your family.... you can try and make little changes in your life to make you happy... you are not a mom or a house wife by your choice... but you can do something with it which is your choice... you got married and had a baby that is past... and you have to live these condition that is present... and you cant change your past... but you can make your present happy... do little things which make you happy... cook something for your own.... go for some hobby class... learn something new... if you are good in something start a little home business of it... just dont do things for your family all day... start getting time for yourself and just yourself too... there are many site on internet where you can pursue your talent ... make images or videos... write a blog... its you who is letting yourself feeling like you are trapped... come out of cage of yourself.... you will find yourself a free bird...

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