When You Have No One.

There are moments when you can't fall asleep, eat, talk or anything. In those moments you just sit, stare at something and think.That's how I feel right now. Empty. I am looking to my past like in album. Until 11 years old all I remember is how my mom hurt me physically. She hit me whenever she wanted to. She often told me that I will be an orphan, she doesn't need me. She really meant it, when she left. But then my dad found another woman,who hates me even more. At first everything was fine. But then... Once I promised to myself that I won't cry about this, I am strong. But even now, when I'm writing this, I cry. I am human,even if I don't want to be. My dad is a good person, but he isn't that happy as well... We had an emotional talk once, he even cried... I hugged him, and we cried together...
When there are family problems, I easily forget all friends and boyfriends drama. Because seeing my dads tears was the thing that hurt me the most in the whole world. I know I am a strong person, but sometimes I think 'why?', why do I have tough life... I have only one friend. A lot of people hurt and betrayed me in the past. I don't know if I can trust anyone... Yes, I am emotionally damaged. I look all strong on the outside, but on the inside I just need someone to hug me quietly...
different33 different33
18-21, F
3 Responses Jun 26, 2012

Life life life ohh life comes with happiness and the ends with tears ... But all we know we have to carry on. Looking to the future we have to go on though uncountable problems meaningless sorrows. This is what called Life! Smile for others to make other's smile. Lets celebrate the Life!

Hello, I feel like you, and I can help you; e-mail me at: raul_xider@yahoo.com

I know this post is a little old, but i have just seen it... It really touched me!.. I felt related...maybe not exactly the same cirumstances (similar though) but i feel exactly the same way you describe it in here.

I am sorry you have had a hard time, i hope everything is all better now. If not, im here for you if you ecer need to talk...

Good luck!

I would be more than happy to hug you i wish ibcould really hug you i wish i could make you happy to me its sad when people are upset i like to help people feel comfterble and happy because it what id like to be all the time not just for a few hours during the day. I hope you feel better if you need someone to talk to let me know even if its the same thing you have an issue with.