Losing My Best Friend

I am at the end of my rope right now. I am totally stressed out about my finances, my kids, and now my best friend doesn't want to be my best friend anymore. She says she can not be in friendship that is so up and down. I get so upset at my oldest daughter. I have helped her financially for years and it is always something. She calls a bunch of times daily to complain or say she is upset etc. I can't take much more of that. I am also about to be evicted, I am financially right now so bad off I don't know where to turn. I have not been able to tell my friend. I would be embarrassed. So this problem with my friend began when I feel that she is not there when I need her. I will text her and she doesn't respond. I call and same thing. I don't usually tell her I need her and when I do she isn't there. So when she asks me, no hounds me, by asking what's wrong, it is usually at work and people are around. I tell her nicely that I don't want to talk about it but she keeps on, until I finally say stop and I get upset. She says I make her feel like crap when I don't talk to her and when I need her and she isn't there. I am confused. She told me the other day, that she can not be in a friendship that is so up and down. I am always readily available to her. Yes she has a husband and 5 kids but in the past she was always there. About a month ago things shifted. Not sure why. I mean she used to reach out to me, say hey friend I miss you. etc. We even got tattoos together, a friendship symbol. So now not only am I losing EVERYTHING I am about to lose my best friend. I asked that she meet up with me and she said she couldn't because she was already in her jammies. Where in the past we would leave the house at 10 or 11. (it was not even 9) so then she text me a big long thing and said that about not being in a relationship. I didn't respond. I didn't know what to say. I gave it a day. I never heard from her at all. She even told a co worker that she was worried about me and that she was going to call me. She never did. So I ended up texting her last night. As of right now I still have not heard from her. I just don't know what to do.
ZoeesGrams ZoeesGrams
46-50, F
1 Response Aug 23, 2012

Thank you. I am struggling bad as to why she has not reached out to me. I have contacted her via text, called and email and i have yet to get a response. I just don't know what I will do if she does not come around. I am at a loss. I just wish she would call or something so we can talk.