I'm So Lost

I had the most wonderful man in my life then 3 weeks ago he took his own life. I know we loved each other unconditionally and we were happy. I've gone over things a million times and I just can't understand why the 9 years tha we spent together were the most wonderful . When it first happened I just wanted to go with him but I now just stay in my room and wonder why I should bother doing anything cause it all seems pointless.
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41-45, F
Sep 22, 2012