Confused

I am not sure where things are going anymore. I'm 25 years old and it finally dawned on me that I'm an adult. I have two part time jobs, no relationship, no career...only two real friends, well, until recently. I am insecure, anxious and have low self esteem. I'm not proud of my accomplishments, and am often jealous of the accomplishments of others.

Which leads me to my predicament, I suppose. My ex-boyfriend and I recently started things up again. It wasn't intentional, and just, well, happened. Turned out he was looking for a casual thing from me, where as I was suppose I wanted something more. Either way, I felt a little taken advantage of, but I broke up with him initially (and likely broke his heart), so I can't really complain. Anyway, that's real friend number one--now on the rocks.

Real friend number two is my better looking more successful half that I've known for a very long time and that I live with. She and my ex-boyfriend just went out for burgers for the first time together (the same day he told me about being 'causual.' We talked about him before she left, and she told me that she'd come home asap and talk to out with me. Instead she hung out with my ex until midnight at a bar. I tried to confront her about this, but it hasn't gone well. She resents that it bothers me, I think. That's as far as I've gotten. Again, she has no history of hanging out with him alone. She feels like she has the right to because she's hung around with us for so long, I guess-- but it doesn't feel that way for me. I don't know.

Now I'm toggling back and forth between how I feel, and how I should feel. I wonder if I should apologize to everyone just to fix my relationships. At the same time, is this really a good thing to do?

I know in retrospect this will all likely seem so small, but it doesn't at the moment. I have no one to talk to about it and I just need advice.

liken liken
22-25
2 Responses Nov 26, 2012

I would try talking to your friend and just have a discussion about how it bothers you that your ex and her are hanging out without you. Shes your friend so Im sure shell support you and help you through this if you just let her know hows your feeling

U need to fix yrself before it is too late....... and u need to fix things with yr friends.... u need to start loving yrself more and try to be happy for yrself not other ppls....... Have faith in god always...... If u really need me,,,, i will be always yr friend..... god bless u