Almost every day I cry from the pain, my heart is constantly feeling broken. Why.... Because stupid me has been dating a married man for almost 3 years. The worse part is I work with this man and its so painful to be around him. I'm almost always jealous and arguing with him. I feel he has this strong hold over me. I know he will never ever leave his wife and I know that if he cheats on his wife then why not me. I'm nothing just sex. He says he loves me but I can't accept those words. It's so painful that I have even contemplating ending my life. I need to get out but I don't see how when we work together. I can't leave my job because I can't afford to be without work and my pay is a decent one. Please any help/advice would be appreciated. I just feel like I'm drowning and no one would help me.