Alone

i've burned all my bridges. i have one friend, who was my boyfriend until very recently, and i feel like our connection is fading away. i have no one to turn to, no one i can really trust. i feel so alone. i want to die but i can't do that to my family, so i'm living this miserable existence. i'm lost and i don't know what to do, i just want to run away from this place and become a new person but that's just running away, it won't solve anything. i'm scared i'm going to sink so low that i try to hurt myself just to deal, like i used to, and i'm so ashamed of letting that happen, because all these feelings are catalyzed by a boy. a boy who i love with my whole heart who doesn't love me anymore, because i gave him too much love and he got bored. it's all my fault. i'm so alone.
sadlittleone sadlittleone
18-21, F
Dec 4, 2012