On The Edge Of Giving Up.

I say to people 'Never give up'.I say 'No matter how hard it is, you have to fight'. And here I am sitting in my cold room without my friend, seeing my life falling apart. I don't know what is right and what is wrong no more. I am afraid of tomorrow. The only thing that is keeping me together right now is my friend. At least I want her to be happy. I want to surprise her. That's it. I haven't talked with my dad probably for two months. One guy from my work wants to have sex with. And he wants that so badly that he's basically ready to break into my home. Another one is the engaged guy, today he said I am rude, and after work I texted him, and he replied 'Who are you'. Yea, who am I. Nothing. Just a drop in the ocean. I am afraid of tomorrow. Because I will see those faces again, I don't know what they gonna tell me. I want that everything would be just like every day. Just like every day... Work, laugh, smoking and going home. That's all I want. I want to meet a person. One person, that I would be happy with. And I want to graduate successfully. If I'm gonna survive tomorrow, nothing will be scary for me. I feel like my world will collapse together with me. I'm sorry, but even the strongest ones can feel weak sometimes.
different33 different33
18-21, F
3 Responses Dec 7, 2012

While I was reading this I was thinking about how it should be a lot easier to give up. For as much as I've felt like it before, it's just harder than it sounds. Idk, maybe I'm just stubborn. If we could only take our own advice life would be simpler. I hope things start looking up for you and you keep up the good fight:)

I say take a chance and go meet someone, who you don`t know and get to know them, if happiness is out there, take control of it and find it!

I can relate to you on this.
Feels like we put all our efforts into making others happy that we neglect our own feelings until they bite back.
I hope you can be strong, because strength and perseverance is what keeps us going.
All the best luck.