Complete 180

Hey all well I've always had trust issues and my best friend of 8 years we got on a fight when another friend revealed she had slept it my ex 3 years before the month after we broke up. And at this point I was a junior in college and had been hurt bad by this one guy so already had trust issues. When I found out I had been lied to for that long by my best friend you know that one best friend who you can read each others minds and it was like your friendship was meant to be, this was that friendship which had been a lie for 3 years MY BEST FRIEND ABOVE ALL betrayed me for the past 3 years. I pretty much have started pushing other friends away and have lost interest In partying and other things we used to do. And now I don't have that best friend you tell everything and anything too and no one that close. The hardest part is having to deal with everything yourself. Like today I had a fun time with an ex boyfriend and I wanna have that person I can run to and tell all the details to and giggle. And speculate about what it means. Now I have to do it all on my own. Seems like a big job for one brain. Well that's the basis idk I just need someone to listen and respond. Ok ill stop -b
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Dec 11, 2012