I Don't Know Why I'm Writing This, Probably Just To Get It Out.I wish I knew where to begin in all honesty. I'm tired, so tired of it all,on paper everything would seem great, I have a job, friends (though fewer than I would like), my own place. But my god I am lonely.
I think the worst part it, I'm sure It's some kind of personality disorder, I know I'm cleverer than everyone else, at least I believe I am. I've had 2 girlfriends in the past, both of which ended when I just feel stifled. The number of people I've slept with is triple figures, yet I know I only do it to try and stave off the aching isolation I feel inside, YET every time I get close to someone, I feel suffocated and stifled and have t break it off. So, I continue to sleep around, trying to feel loved for a little bit.
I don't know why I'm writing this, probably just to get it out.