Where Do I Go From Here.

Try to think bout whats happening is that it's won't last...it's only temporary. Think bout where you want to be in 3 years....what you want to do.
Aim for that.
Start applying for job you actually want to do. There's nothing wrong with changing careers or jobs. I've done it three times already.
And the best part is that you experience alot more in life when you do.
Im sorry bout you & your GF. Five years is alot of time to throw away. There's somebody else out there for you....there always is....and just remember...you have some EP friends here to help ya out

A lot of the things you are dealing with I can relate to. I am going through similar situations right now. I am struggling to pay bills, family doesn't understand and I don't really have friends to turn to. If you ever want to talk I will listen.

you're too young to be worrying about that. Just get rid of all the things that are draining your life and find support within yourself. Then you will be able to make decisions with a clear head.

If you just have six months to go - does that mean you get a full time job after that? If so why not start putting a plan together to start saving in order to get out of your mothers? When you are in that situation when you have no end in site - it is a very sad place.. if you have a date, a month or something - you can get a little excited about life - maybe a new beginning...

There are soooo many women out there.. to be honest it is better you found out now.. so that you did not marry her - found out she was like this and then go thru a costly divorce..

I mean its hard but just think what next year would be like?? get excited about life!!! There are always new things coming and they are not all bad!!!

I hope you will find the better way as soon as possible, just keep pray and God will show you the way

That's tough... Honestly, it seems you've reached your bottom. Which means, you can only go up from here! Keep with your job for now, but find what you really love and then go for THAT! You'll find another girl eventually that'll stick forever, and now you're living with your mother... Tomorrow in a mansion! Who knows?!? Just work hard and eventually you'll pay your mother back, get back on your feet, and help your stepdad ALL at the same time.

there a stronger love out there i was in ur spot and when my wife left me i felt the same i lost so much wait stayed home get high un tell i met some good people went out drinking and these guys are great and my heart began to wake up again u dont need love of one person that love has the power to go out to everyone and that why we all came her cuz that what we all beleive trust me my friend time heals it just enjoy and do thing that benifit the world for i beleive gods with us to the end
just try to feel him meditate every day to calm ur feeling and mind

It sounds to me like she has issues of her own-and they are her issues not yours-so don't take on any guilt-focus on what you need to do to get yourself happy again-I know its hard-but once you start shifting focus-you will see and feel a change in your life-its about you now

Pray...just ask God for help.He will hear u

Thank you everybody for your replies. I guess I kind of knOw why she left, but it's hard for me to deal with. About a year and a half ago she became very discontent with her life. Something happend, and because I had never really had any kind of experience dealing with it, I was unable to comfort her. I tried so hard, but I just couldn't say or do any of the right things. There was this other guy, one day she told me how she had a big long chat with this guy, and it made her feel a lot better. I was happy someone was able to help and didn't think anything of it, but then latter in the year she broke up with me on Christmas eve. She said she was confused and didn't want to hurt me any more. The next night I caught up with her on Christmas and she told me how she had gone to this guys house because she felt alone, and that they had done stuff. To this day she insists That she didn't break up with me for that reason thi. Anyway for the next year we were in and off. Every time things started to be going ok, she would break it of again. She said she was feeling overwhelms and was having trouble dealing with her emotions. This last time though I thought things were going to be different. We talked about getting married a lot, and we even had a pregnancy scare, but she was sad when she found out she wasn't. So I decided to do it, I proposed to her in her birthday infront of everybody. We went on to start trying to organize things, but that's when I stopped getting work. I told her things will be ok and that work will come back soon, because i know it will. But it must have become too much for her. We were living together at the time. Witch ment she was paying for everything. Then a week before she broke up with me she started acting strange again. Saying she was feeling confused and having trouble with her emotions. I knew what was coming because it happend so many times before. She said she still loves me, but hates out relationship, and that she resents me. I still love her too, and I can understand compleatly why. But I proposed with the intention I always being there, through good and bad. I guess it was a silly assumption to expect the same back

You must find peace and joy within yourself and stop looking outside of yourself. If you do get lonely, go to a yoga class, gym, or some other activity where you will be around others while still working on finding harmony within yourself. Go with the flow, even the ups and downs in life. As they say, roll with it. All is well and in divine order. Focus your intention on having peace and joy now, in this moment. Seek higher conciousness.

You are not pathetic. Dont put yourself dosn. Sounds like your going through arough time but at least you didnt get married and find out that she wanted out. You have your whole lifeahead of you now. Think possitive thoughts and keep talking to o th ers. I hope thissite helpsme. I feel like i need other people to galk to so i dont feel like I'm the only one.

I apparently cznt type either

Hi. I just sighned up for this also and dont know how thos works. I read your story and feel same way. I am marr ok ed but confused. I am not happy and dont know if i am able to kiveon my own.

sorry hun it gets better i promise

Are you sure you don't know why she left, there must and been some kind of sign. The first thing you do is pick yourself up. Start from the bottom and work your way to the top. Your life may have fallen apart but its not to late to put it all back together. Don't worry about what people say about you, that will just bring you down. Try to find out what happened to your relationship then work on fixing it. If your girl found someone else then move on. Never give up, keep moving ahead for yourself and everything will come together but it may not happen as fast as you would like it.

I am sorry to hear of your mishaps and can certainly relate. Some terrible things happened in my past and they are now surfacing and were part of the reason my boyfriend and I broke up last night. My job is stressful as well and working long hours is not my picture perfect idea. However, lifes struggles make us so much stronger. We can't go through them alone. If I didn't have my relationship with Jesus Christ I would have no hope. He gives me such joy even in the darkness and trials of this life! If you turn your problems to Him and ask for help He will always be there. In this life you will have many trials but remember you are not of the world and God has overcome it.

so negative

Msg me if you need a friend ok?

It depends on what you want in your life. If you think that there is something better for you out there that you would enjoy and excel at, go for it. Never let anything interfere with what you want to do with your life. If you do something that you are good at, then you will be able to work better and get promotions probably faster. That way you can pay your debts off in installments. Also, sell something. Temporarily, while you are looking for a new job, you need something to pay off some of the debt. That's where you have to sell something so that you can get some of the debt off your back. I wish you all the best. Good luck!

What is it you enjoy doing?
Everyone says to finish and become certified.
If you have made a commitment to something, then you should certainly see it through.
Truth is though, if it is not something you like, you need to ask yourself what it is you want to be doing.
Find new friends!
Unless you and your ex are traveling in the same direction, move forward on your own.
Having a history with someone is only valuable if it pushes you on up, let everything and everyone holding you down go.
Every day is an opportunity to have a happy life!
Enjoy!

I would complete my apprenticeship but at the same time I would focus on what I am going to do after that 6 month period, I would see if there are other certifications that you are going to need to get the best job possible after the 6 months and start looking for grants/ scholarships to make it happen. Just because your friends are into that scene doesn't mean that is you. You can do something better in your life, and you know it or you would not feel the way you do about living with your mother. Start looking for other employment options in the area or in other areas. I wish you luck on your life journey.