I Have A ProblemI'm not afraid to say it I DO have a problem with the way my minds thinks. It's Embarrassing to say but I have problems with my parents having sex, talking about it to each other , or it even being on my mind.
It's mostly the main reason why I get in trouble.
I usually over hear them talking about it. But to them their either joking around or I hear them wrong. I hate thinking about it, thinking that I'm in the other room sleeping and so are my brothers with our door wide open.
Tonight I over heard my mom asking my step dad mike if he wake up a little bit early and could pack our lunches tomorrow morning since he was working in town. Mike said "well I have to wake up early anyways" she said why, there was silents, and then they laughed. I went to my room crying without them hearing me and I locked my door, and went to my bathroom to get the makeup off my face.
About five minutes later my mom yelled lets go, because we had to leave and get something. I yelled down I don't want to go trying to hold back the tears but it didn't work my mom yelled what's the matter and I said nothing. She didnt believe it, so she ran up to see why I was crying.
I told her i heard what they said about mike getting up early and when I did she made up 100 different excuses. first she said "why? To make your lunch!?" I said no, why both of them had to get up. She got what I was saying and said "don't listen to what mike says his kidding" I told her I knew she was lying and I just wanted to be alone, she wanted me to come but I can't stand to be in the car with both of them.
I feel like I'm really alone, and I'm the only one who over thinks about their parents having sex. Please anyone who knows what I'm going through leave a comment or something. I hate feeling so hurt and think I'm a crazy person who needs to get my head checked please help.