Being NiceAll my life I've been nice, had a big heart, always respectful, i never did anything wrong, always played by the rules, i'm a good person and i didn't do it 'cause i had to do it, i did it 'cause it was who i am. As i grew i saw how society was stooping lower and lower by the day and i promised myself that i would never let society ****** me up like it did and is doing to people now. I always helped when people needed it, i remember when i hadn't ate for almost two days, i just drank water and had one slice of bread, my friend said "lets go to McDonalds and i'll buy you food" so i went. I saw two homeless guys asking for food and every time i see homeless people i just tear up and look away as it hurts me so much to see that. I ordered a lot of food, i walk out of McDonalds and i head straight to the homeless guys and give them everything. My friend looked at me and just smiled and said "you're just too damn humble aren't you" I apologized to him a bunch of times but he didn't care 'cause he understood.
Well back to the point, being nice has got me no where in this world, i see a bunch of a-holes do wrong, ruin the very girls that i cry to God for, and yet they get whatever they want. Being nice has made people walk all over me in life, being made fun off, being lied to even by my own family, being rejected, people knew/know how i was/am and they took/take advantage of that. I only ever asked for one thing in my life, its not money, its not a fancy car, its not a big house, its just that one thing in my heart that i always wanted and i can't even get that. I cry myself to sleep, i ask why do i have to be lonely, what have i done to deserve this, all i ever did and still do is live life the right way, doing right, its who i am. I'm scared that i will become bitter and my heart will turn black, that i will not care about anything anymore, that i wont have feeling anymore, i hope this never happens, i have so much anger in me on top of my depression and the hurt that i suffer everyday. I just hope that someone can help me and understand what I've been through, i just feel that i wasn't made for this world, i don't belong here. I can only hope.