All Gone

I moved to new york three years ago and I met this girl... Let's just call her Jane doe. Jane was in a very bad relationship and i would see her crying every day so I went over and spoke to her. Fast forward to about 6 months ago we were best friends. We did everything together. She knew I had feelings for her but due to the fact that in the past I have cheated on my girlfriends she thought it would be good to keep it as a friendship. As time went on she met this guy that I hated. It's obvious to me now that it was all jealousy but at the time I would call him names and bad mouth him when ever she brought him up. Now she hates me and I caused her relationship to become even worse than the one she was in when I met her. I think at some point I might get my *** kicked but I don't know when. I wish I could take it back but at the time I was so angry all the time and it felt good to hate on him. I haven't spoken to her much lately but I just want her to be happy and for this drama to end. Nobody understands because they all tell me I deserve what I get. I just need to know what to do. I'm sad, alone, and scared.
Patwancho Patwancho
1 Response Feb 2, 2013

Blaming yourself isn't going to fix this mess. I have a feeling that you already have an idea on what you should do. It's the "if-you-have-the-guts-to-do-it" part. I think you should apologize. Sure, she might not accept it and sure, it's pride-damaging, but at least you're making an effort. And as little as that is, it's still going to make a difference. If you're gonna keep avoiding her, she's just going to think that you don't care. Just make sure that when you do finally decide to confront her, you're ready. Take a good grip on what you're gonna say. Good luck! :)

By the way, I don't think you deserve what your going through. No one deserves to be lonely. Maybe it was because of you that this whole thing happened. But you can do something about it. It's just a matter of when.

Thank u. I have no problem with swallowing my pride... Hell I would give my right arm to find the words I need to tell her how much I regrett what I did.

That's good. I wish you luck then :)