I moved to new york three years ago and I met this girl... Let's just call her Jane doe. Jane was in a very bad relationship and i would see her crying every day so I went over and spoke to her. Fast forward to about 6 months ago we were best friends. We did everything together. She knew I had feelings for her but due to the fact that in the past I have cheated on my girlfriends she thought it would be good to keep it as a friendship. As time went on she met this guy that I hated. It's obvious to me now that it was all jealousy but at the time I would call him names and bad mouth him when ever she brought him up. Now she hates me and I caused her relationship to become even worse than the one she was in when I met her. I think at some point I might get my *** kicked but I don't know when. I wish I could take it back but at the time I was so angry all the time and it felt good to hate on him. I haven't spoken to her much lately but I just want her to be happy and for this drama to end. Nobody understands because they all tell me I deserve what I get. I just need to know what to do. I'm sad, alone, and scared.