Hi! My name is Alex.. and all I want right now it's someone to talk to me.. someone that gives a **** about me..I just want someone to tell me that it's all gonna be ok.. I'm 15.. my dad passed away when I was 3, my father was the only one that wanted me to live.. I was born just because my father wanted a son.. my mother never wanted me, or loved me.. . I was born almost dead.. but some doctors saved me unfortunately.. My mother always told me that she hated me because I reminded her of my dad.. I always hated me for that.. My mom married again when I was five, my step dad is an abusive alcoholic man.. I get beaten EVERY SINGLE NIGHT since I was 5. My whole body it's covered in scars. My step father used to lock me in the basement for days.. and he is still doing that.. . I am and was and will be abuse in every single way possible. He burnt me, cut me, drowned me, make me suffer in every way possible. I used to beg for my life every night.. But now I don't care about my life anymore, I just want it to be over, I just wanna die.. I tried to take my life numerous times but.. I am not capable of anything.. I have no idea how love fells like. Nobody loves me.. I was loved by my dad..I think.. but this was 12 years ago and I don't really remember much.. I never really trusted anyone and nobody knows about my life.. my "family".. but now I'm just DONE, I can't take this by my own anymore.. Ohh.. I trusted someone once.. my school counselor.. but my trust in him just disappeard when he tried to **** me.. I DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS !!! Why a man would want to **** a boy?? I don't ******* understand, it's sooo painful.........I don't want anyone to go through this.. it's so ******* painful.. and so disgusting.. I will end my story here because I don't think that someone will read this anyway..