Im depressed . I feel alone , even when I have loads of friends . Im always tired . & not the type of tired sleep can fix . Im a lesbian . And nobody really cares , which I love . But , I can't stay in a commited relationship . I cheat . I sleep with two or more girls when I have a girlfriend . & the thing is that I don't feel bad . But I feel lonely . & when I think about my future I see nothing . Its blank , like if I have no future . I don't know what im gonna become . Depression is getting all of me . I just stay in my room and listen to music . My family doesn't even notice how broken I am .