Not For Me

I look at the world, look at society, think about everything I've been through in my life since i can remember and just feel that maybe i don't belong here anymore. Being who i am has gotten me nowhere and nothing in life, being told compliments only to be rejected by the very same people who complimented me. All my life I've had a care and love for people, i never received that back ever, instead i got a "what is wrong with you" look like being this type of person is bad or is no longer existent. I'm too nice, too humble, have too big of a heart and all this has given the people reason to walk all over me, take advantage of me, lie to me.

All my life i grew up with hypocrites, seen the generation before me and my generation be so arrogant and ignorant. Trying to help someone is no longer appreciated with the person you're trying to help, instead they hate you for it, just today on this very website a girl insulted me 'cause i tried to help her, i also told her that i'm not going to have sex before marriage and she said i'm "narrow minded" 'cause of this decision, that this idea "belongs in the dark ages" she then blocked me. Society has convinced and brainwashed so many people into believing that wrong things are right in life that when you speak the truth you get demonized for it.

I wasn't built for this world, no one has ever gave back the love i gave, no one has ever cared for me like i cared for them, i'm the total opposite of what this world became and will continue to become, so why put me here to go through this? Why make me the piece of crap of this world? Why still be here when i see things just get worse? Being told that everything will be alright when in reality nothing will be alright, the first 23 years of my life haven't been alright so what makes people think that everything will just magically change?

Maybe i don't belong in this world and maybe i should do something about this to where i wont be any longer.