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I'M So Unhappy!

By: BonjourKitty
Written on February 19th, 2013
I just can't break from this darkness. I'm always miserable and angry at something and I dont know how to just stop and feel good again to know what happiness is again. I guess I should give my reasoning for feeling this way. Not that I've ever really been a happy person. In 2009 my dad died, it was hard but me and my mom we just about pulled through that was until my mom died in 2011 they were both 46. I had just turned 18 when I lost my mom. Ever since I've been sinking deeper and deeper into this depression and I don't see a way out. I'm 20 now I managed to get a job and a girlfriend. Those are both another story, neither make me happy but I guess at this point if I deserved happiness I would have it by now. I must deserve this. I just wish I could end it all, I don't have anything to wake up in a morning for. Nothing, that's me nothing, no-one.
By: BonjourKitty
Age: 18-21 , Female
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3 responses
  • mountainman286
    mountainman286

    Kisses her forehead softly...

    Feb 19
    2 likes
  • BonjourKitty
    BonjourKitty

    It's just so difficult to keep going when things just seem to get worse and worse

    Feb 19
    1 like
  • rickibrat2
    rickibrat2

    I understand the pain but I have no answer even for myself, we just go on with life I think I have tried to live my life the way my young wives grandparents would have wanted me to live it. I have tried to make her dreams come true that we talked about many nights as we laid in bed with each talking, I knowit sounds silly we were so young but yet so it seemed I am glad and thank full for her family and the love I was shown even at 11 years old from them and the understanding
    which is. Why have tried to live the way I think they would have wanted me to go on with my life after all of their deaths my wife was 19, and our mother took her won life think both the children she had brought up were dead within two days but I was alive in a coma.

    Feb 19
    2 likes