Hypothetically, a 16 year old girl still living at home and going to a giant school has many people to talk to. It is a logical conclusion. But, and I don't know why, I just can't talk to those people. My family or my friends. My family don't talk much in general anyway, and never about the hard stuff...but I used to stay up all night talking with my friends - about anything! We had fun but when it was necessary we could talk about the painful things. But now it's just like I don't want to talk to them. I don't want them to have to listen to me say things about life and how it is messed up and all of that. I am becoming so reclusive, so I can avoid people and their questions. I used to talk. Now I just can't. It's insane. I don't want them to hear me. I want to be quiet for other people's sake. Why should they have to listen to me? It is out of nowhere, all of this. I don't know what's going on. I used to be really loud. I feel unstable. Hmm.