A Lot to Read, So Bear With It Please.
Need opinions. Please. It's a lot to read, but I think it's all relevant in one way or another. Thanks for your time, I really appreciate it.
I told the gf that I wouldn't talk to the ex anymore.
I continued to talk to the ex behind her back.
I told her that the ex and I haven't been talking.
She probably knows that we hadn't stopped talking, due to certain facts that I was too careless to hide.
On the phone, she said I would be thinking about it all night if we talked about the situation, and she wouldn't answer me when I asked if she was gonna break up with me.
She's almost definitely going to break up with me. That's nearly a fact.
I don't deserve to date her after lying the way I did. But there's one thing that she should never have asked of me.
We knew each other for a long time before we started dating. We were really good friends then. She had a boyfriend who ignored her, and I was always there to comfort her. They weren't a good match for each other. They eventually broke up, and after a while, we started dating.
As a couple, we were the best. Nonsense pet names back and forth constantly. We loved all the same stuff: video games, food, movies, music...and she was easy to talk to since we already had a history as friends.
Hard times fell on us as with any relationship. I found out that she had cheated on me with her ex. We broke up. She really, really hurt me. The next few weeks went by as a blur. My friends all hated her. I still loved her. I didn't want to live without her in my life. You all know how the story goes. We got back together. It was a long time before I could trust her again. But as time heals (almost) all, we went back to normal. Things were great again. Haha.
Her mom met a guy who lived in Texas (We're from Missouri), and eventually married him. She had nowhere to go, so she had to move. We tried staying together, but as anyone who has tried to hold a long-distance relationship will know, it's nearly impossible. After a few months, she broke up with me.
Two-and-a-half year relationship. Some of the best times of my life.
After she broke up with me, times were rough. But we eventually started talking again, and we realized we were still close. That was cool with me. She was dating someone now, and it hurt, but I got over it eventually. We rekindled our friendship, and that's all it was. Friendship. We were even still on the same cell phone account together.
I eventually started dating again, but I never could get into any girls the way I got into her. I guess I wouldn't let myself get close to anyone.
Then a girl came along, and I started to feel things I hadn't felt in a long time.
The girlfriend is actually someone I met while dating the ex. She was dating someone I knew in high school, but wasn't really good friends with, although we shared a lot of the same friends, and had hung out on occasion. Eventually they broke up. They were together for 2 years or so.
We hit it off this New Years, and it was awesome. Finally, another girl I could see myself marrying eventually. Our personalities matched so well, it was scary. Our relationship got serious very quickly, but I always felt like she had some secret, and she was always somewhat reserved because of it.
After a while, she told me. Her ex, the guy I knew in high school, was abusive to her, and threatened to kill her several times. He even forced sex on her. She told me about an ex she had in high school that was the same way. I felt horrible for her. She explained to me that she was in counseling, and that she was getting over it, bit by bit.
Now the girlfriend is likely on the verge of breaking up with me, and I have no idea what to do. I have three choices: Be a bad friend, continue to lie, or lose my girlfriend. Which is the lesser of three evils, I wonder?
I really have no idea how to end this. It's poorly written, and the train of thought is all over the place. It was really all just me wanting to get feelings off my chest, but if anyone wants to throw something in, that would be appreciated. Thanks again for reading.