I Feel Very Alone Rate Now
Today i finally confessed and broken down to open up a bit today. My husband is a rageaholic and i realize i have no where left to turn. i thought it might get better to things would work out but i feel like my life is out of control rate now and not sure really where to turn anymore.
i love him with all my heart but i fear this is not enough to go on anymore. i am 5 months pregnant and i have to start looking out for the baby. i know how hard this is going to be but i tried everything to keep him under control. i am losing, sadly and his rage is now out of control. its becoming more violent and more often with no rhyme or reason anymore.
here i am typing and i feel broken, lost and confused about this but i know one thing, i just can not live like this anymore. what would happen if he rage with the baby ? or would he ? do i want to take this risk ?
he is taking medication but its not doing anything anymore. we tried seeing a anger management counselor but that did nothing. tried putting note and pictures on the wall but when he is mad its just an other thing to throw. tried to give each other space when we feel heated but its impossible to know when he is going to flip because it just happens out of the blue.
my only thought is to leave my husband and its braking my heart into because i am not one to give up but what more can i do
i can not take him screaming at me and braking everything around me. some how some way i have to find the strength to move away from this before its to late and something really bad happens
life freaking sucks :(