Cursed From Birth
I am 19 year old girl who from very early on has had bad experiences in life. Don't mean to sound pesimistic or like I am seeking attention, but when I was roughly 2 years old my parents were attacked and beaten. My mum had a stroke and will never be the same again and it has changed my life I have delt with it for many years, but for some reason it just keeps playing in my mind, what if this didn't happen life would be different. My parents are nervous people now and my mum cannot go out the house with being extremely nervous. I am being selfish for once and instead of asking for help for them I am crying out for someone to talk to because I just don't think I can keep it bottled up any longer. I have often had nightmares about the event seeing my parents walk through the door dripping in blood and barely standing. It's horrible and ruining my life. Positive things to come from this are it makes me a stronger person in a way, but negative its been slowly eating away at me for years. My mum can never go anywhere without a walking stick she was told she would never walk again but she has done, my dad wasn't to badly beaten but he suffered from a nervous breakdown and now both lifetime illnesses are killing me as well. I just hope I can talk to someone because like I say I am going stir crazy. I Have had councilling before but I wasn't ready for it. Time for me to be selfish and help myself.