My Life Is No Fairy Tale..

i was born into a family of 4 sibblings..i was the third.  my father never wanted children and my mother had a nervous breakdown when i was 6 mo. i was sent to my aunts and my fear of rejection and abandonment is my major problem now.  i was sent to family again later(my guess about 2) and was mistreated severely. i was returned home and my mother slept all of the time. i woke to the bus honking to wake us up for school...no breakfast..no clean clothes...sometimes my pj's under my dress. its affecting all of my relationships now at 44. pls help. connie

conniebellinger conniebellinger
41-45, F
2 Responses Feb 10, 2010

CONNIEBELENGER. I READ YOUR HISTORY AND HAVE TO SAY I AM SO SORRY. IS IT HARD TO GROW INTO AN ADULT? IF EVER YOU WANT TO TALK, PLEASE LET ME KNOW. NIPPLEPLEASER2

I have learned that the bad things that happen to us when we were younger. Can make us a stronger person. My life was anything but a bowl of cherries. I really understand where you are coming from. I under stand you must feel betrayed and maby scared to allow someone to get close to you. Because maby they will not be there when you need them. I feel that you are a very strong person! That you may have a fear of rejection.Just like I have. You have been throught so much in your life and are sooooooo much stronger than you think. Take it slow tell them you want to take it slow . Allow yourself to trust them when it feels right for you