Alone

I never thought it would be me. Alone among a crowd of my own making. He said he loved me forever, what a croc of ****!

He betrayed me with another. The only question is why? He will never be able to answer to my satisfaction.

I love him with all my heart, yet I could cut his out of his chest right now.

Its hard loosing your friend, your lover the bed never felt so big before.

I told him go, I  had to, he has no honesty or spine he betrayed us all for what SEX how sad.

I want to be held, to  feel like a woman not a ghost I put on the mask say im fine while inside I scream.

As I write this tears fall, that happens alot in my solitude. The kids cant see they hurt enough.

Some say take him back he is sorry, he is only sorry that he got caught.

I feel so alone.

 

libby37 libby37
36-40, F
1 Response Mar 2, 2010

Hugs...be strong. A broken heart never feels like it will heal in the beginning. You know what is right for you and will make the right decision as time goes on whether or not it is better to take him back. It is always easier for others (friends and family even strangers) to say what is best for another. I have been betrayed by another and it took a long time for me to heal...I wrote alot, talked alot to my peoples and prayed. Always thanked God for my kids because they were the only ones that kept me strong when I wanted to give up. Hugs...every thing will be alright after time has past and the worst is over.