Why Am I Not Feeling Anything?

I went to school today to hear a boy committed suicide this morning and died shortly after.  I felt bad he did it ,but I felt weird every time someone started crying over him, and i don't know why but I was mad at them. I started to think what would happen if I died would people cry? I am happy to be alive but the boy took his own life and no one knew why...it shows how much we really know about our classmates.  I get scared sometimes of what will happen after high school but i will never bail out. Every time I think life is too hard me I imagine how much I would hurt my mom. I just keep going and fighting but it just seems hard, but I know it is not my time to go.

beccared0609 beccared0609
13-15, F
Mar 3, 2010