Im just at a loss, i dont really know what to feel because it cant get any answers on so so many things. I ditched some people in the past and Ill admit i still feel like a **** about it but I couldnt relate to many of them. Additon to that Iv been looking for a job even though its gonna be heartbreaking to leave my current on because I have so many times that it just made me laugh and the people I work with are so cool. I just need more more money, not a ton but enough to get out on my own. My friends always wanna hit up bars but I walk into the damn bars and its like a high school reunion every damn weekend and its just an uneasy feeling because Iv changed so much and i see people in there who look at me different because of this. Like they think I think im better than them. I just dont know how long I can keep it up in there but I dont want to loose my friends. I just want a fresh start, which is one positive thing to look at with a better job I guess, i can HOPEFULLY get enough to move 20 miles in any direction. I use to think it was dumb to move to a school if you had to pay for it yourself but now I FULLY understand why people do it. For a break from the bullshit, a fresh start in a new place, a chance to grow without being looked down upon by people who are stuck like a mouse on a wheel. Many its half depression and the other half of being fed up with everything and im looking for a change...or maybe im crazy. Anyway if anyone else is feeling this or wants to say something feel free I just needed to let some **** out and i hope others do the same.