Please Help Me

To start` off my boyfriend and i have been with each other for three years.

in the beggining of the relationship, i lied to him about my past of the guys i had been with, because one i was taken advantage of horribly and i was ashamed of myself. and once he found out he called me a sl*t and a wh**e.

 

my boyfriend has cheated on me multipul times and even a few times before he found out i lied. then months down the road i was with a few of my girlfriends and a guy grabbed my hand for less then a minute and i didnt tell him about it then when i did, he says i cheated on him

so today i annoyed him when i got confused about something, i like thought he meant something about the house alarm being on and i was like no no babe it isnt on and he was like well why not and i explanned why and he was like "god! do you ever listen i meant the phone alarm so i know when to leave. youre so annoying!"

and once he got annoyed he left our house and went to his sisters house and his ex amanda was there and i texted him and said is there anyone there i should know about and he texted back "Manda" and so i called and was like are you serious you are going to call her by her nickname and he was like well you call your ex by his nickname all the time my ex's name is r.j but that  isn't his real name but it is the name he gets called by everyone because he is the second one in his family with the name.

and we got in to this big fight and he was like " your a horrible girlfriend i should just be with amanda, get her to suck my d**k and make me c*m, you know you made me realize i am in love with her" and then i started crying and he was like "go ahead and cry, i don't care" and then broke up with me and hung up. i then called back and he answered and he was laying down with his ex in bed talking to her all sweet because she didnt feel good.

 

 

i am so hurt and i dont know what to do. after everything that i did wrong the lying ( which was in the very very start of the relation ship and the hand holding was a year ago) do i deaserve all of this?, what can i do to make things better?,  i love this man but i dont know what to do please help me

p.s... i had to edit this story just now because i texted him and asked him what he was doing and he said leave me alone im with my girlfriend.. and i called and him and his ex really are back together...

ArielRose16 ArielRose16
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 11, 2010

I'm sorry that this happened to you, but I agree with freefly, you need to find someone else. You need to be treated with respect not played like your ex did to you.

Reading this broke my heart you need to move on, to be quite blunt it sounds like this guy was just taking you for a ride. You certainly dont need some one who as soon as he breaks up with his gf goes and sleeps with his x. Also the fact he is wiv his x now, I think u shud already know u need to move on. Hes moved on its time for u to. The way he treated u was bad he was clearly in the wrong he supposed to love u not talk to u lk ur a piece of ****. Hes probbly using his x right now and theres a gud chance he'll try to use u again in the future. If it makes u feel better I rekon u and ur gf should get together somtime nd just chill hv a good time take things slow. I am sure u'll find some one else who will treat u right. U sound lk u really do lv him so it might be tuff but u'v made it this far so u sound strong to me any ways its up to u to show him wot he gve up gud luk