He Can't Really Help It But...

There are so many times that I really need my husband. He's my best friend and the one person I cant wait to tell when I have a good day or the first persom I wanna cry to when things aren't going my way. But for the last 2 years he's been plagued by depression. If I try to open up and talk to him, it goes in one ear and out the other. As if he doesn't even hear the pain Im trying to express or happiness Im trying to share. All he thinks about are all the mistakes he's made in life, in our relationship etc. He continuously tells me how he thinks he's a huge loser and failure at life. Its so sad to hear him speak this way about himself. This is the man who's always been my big protector and always ran to my defense. Now he barely gets out of bed in the morning. Its so hard watching someone who was once a funny, outgoing, social goofball who was my rock, turn into a big depressed mess. I know he's in there somewhere, listening when Im upset or wanting to hold me when I cry. I just miss him and I hope one day he'll be my big supporter like he once was before.

Flutterbies Flutterbies
26-30, F
Feb 26, 2010