i dont know what it is.
im grasping at straws, clinging to anyone who walks past, begging with anyone who stops to save me.
i can't save myself any more. i dont have it in my. im weak and im tired. and i know you cant save me.
but i need something. there is a part of my heart continuously restless, wanting to search for this thing i know probably doesnt exist.
i need some sort of comfort. support. i need to reach out and have people reaching back, not turned away.
so this is me reaching back. i need you. i need anyone who reads this story. i need a gesture or a gift or something. just to take me out of this world i have built where only i exist. where I am the be all and end all. i need a hug or a few words of comfort.
i dont want advice or pity. just something to get me through the days because theyre getting so hard and i dont know if i can do it.