Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and have to ask why? Why am I the way I am why couldn't I have been the pretty one or the real athletic one or even the sweet shy one? No I became the nerd the activist the bookworm the one that everyone assumes will make it far because she can't seem to keep her nose out of a book and yet I barely manage to get good grades. I have to deal with so much **** that people don't even guess at a dad who hasn't had a polite conversation with me in 7 years and a mom who is more concerned with herself then her daughter and older sisters who tell me that they'll pray for me... Really people if I wanted someone to pray for me I would do i its just annoying to know that you think I'm doing the wrong thing constantly. Sometimes I really wish I was born into a diffrent family my family really sucks sometimes.
Roseyfox Roseyfox
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 26, 2014

Just because you see yourself that way doesnt mean others do. There is all kinds if beautiful. your just one kind in a million different kinds out there. I think a smart intelluctal over achiever is sexy and intriguing. its also intimidating. yeah we cant help who our family is, we live in a world full of people who disagree with us. but that is life we dont let everyone elses approval dictate our beings. Be who you are and be confident. as long as your not hurting others being your self as weird as you think it is a beautiful thing.