Cruddy Service At 29 PalmsMy love is at Twentynine Palms for predeployment training even though they dont know if he is deploying yet. I am becoming very anxious about that. I want to know and not be stuck in this limbo of emotions; "yay he isnt going, oh no he is, back to yay again". Its frustrating! What is MORE frustrating is that I can't talk to him like I did when he was at Lejeune. I miss the HECK out of him. My days are DRAGGING by and I have gotten like five texts since he got there late on Wednesday. I hate this. Not knowing how his day is, or talking to him before I fall asleep. I havent woken up to a sweet good morning text from him and it REALLY affects my attitude for the day. On the flipside, each text feels like a HUGE gift from God and I am SO thankful to have even the littlest bit of communication. I know he is safe and that is what matters. I just wish I could train my brain to NOT search for the nearest clock and COUNT how many hours it's been since I've heard from him. I check my phone without even meaning to and it drives me insane! C'mon brain - knock it off!!!!!
Hope you gals are staying strong!
lovethewhale 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 Feb 17, 2012