Struggling Still

Well, my boyfriend left for basic on Sunday and arrived there Monday night. It has only been about five days, and I dot know what to do with myself. I write him a letter every day so that he'll have plenty to read when I finally get his address. Some of them are kind of sentimental though and I'm afraid he'll get in trouble if one of his DIs get ahold of them. Two days after he left was our two year anniversary. It was difficult to go through it alone. I have one or two friends that are being pretty supportive, but the others aren't much help. I'm struggling pretty badly to handle having the only person who can truly make me feel better's absence the reason I'm do torn up. I love him more than I could possibly explain, but I'm sure a lot of you understand that. We've been through hell and back in our relationship and at the point in time when he left our relationship was so strong. I know this is going to make it even stronger. I just can't figure out how to make it three months. I keep hearing that it gets better when the letters start coming, but I know that won't be for another few weeks. I could just use some advice on how to get through them. I've been counting down the days until his graduation (84 as of today). I just miss him so much already. And not hearing from him has me getting caught up in my head space and worrying that he isn't going to love me when he finishes because I don't have him here telling me that he always will. I'm sorry, I'm just freaking out a little bit. Any advice at all would be amazing. Thank you all so much.
Almostalyssaaa Almostalyssaaa
18-21, F
May 24, 2012