Need To Be Kept In Check

Need someone to keep me in check especially right now,someone that keeps staying their and motivating me so that when I start doing things I don't give up on them and keep going hate to say it but I think I do need some help bouncing back and getting back on track not sure if this is rock bottom but..it's somewhere in the dumps and I need to change can't stay stuck here forever.Just wish I had someone I could trust and that when I did wouldn't give up on me and keep being their even when I pushed them away and kept encouraging me to keep going and get my life back on track cause I'm pretty miserable I guess hate how things are and I'm scared and worried and feel alone and lost and just confused and I hate getting help and asking for it and being weak and putting all my sh*t out their for people to see and judge but maybe I really should get some help and let myself be helped and trust someone.Cause I'm not so sure I can really do this all on my own.