What Went Wrong??

I became sick with an incurable disease 7 years ago. It took 2 years to finally find a doctor that need what I had. I was glad I found out what I had; but sad that there was nothing to do about it. My husband seemed to be supportive at first and then became angry that I had become sick and depressed. So the way he handled it was to transfer his job 3000 miles away and started going out. I was sick I couldn't fly and go visit because he didn't want me to come back there.

I've been told I'm beautiful and look like Jacqline Smith. Well now with the depression and all the medicine I've gained weight. Not my fault, but he started blaming me for everything and when he did come home this man turned into the meanest person I've ever know. He insults me; abusive and throw things at me. We've been married 30 years and this man use to be so kind and so loving that it is hard to throw him away; because what if the real Steve comes back.

He will not sleep with me and hasn't had sex with me in 3 years.

I'm starved for affection. I'm smart, intelligent, creative and independent. I just want to be cuddled and loved.

I need to know if I should file for a divorce by July 1st,

Sincerely