Stuck In a Sexless Marriage
I do not consider myself old or unattractive. I am a kind loving man who really listens and cares. My wife has a debilitating disease like ruematoid arthritis. We do not have sex anymore. It's October 2007 now and I haven't had sex since April sometime, I think. I'm not even sure anymore. I swore I wouldn't just give up, but I have I suppose. I've tried to find someone else, but I feel I will ruin my family and myself. But, I cannot stand not having someone to be intimate with. I wanted a "fun" marriage that is alive and exciting. Instead I play the role of butler and roommate. My wife sometimes treats me like a child in front of my kids and I feel enraged but do little about it because I'm trying to keep my family together. There is no love, no respect, and I'm not cherished. If I could just find a woman who wants to REALLY be loved, I'd file a divorce and move on. I just haven't found anyone yet who wants to be loved by me. I'll keep waiting and hoping someday things will change.