Love Keeps No Record Of Wrongs!!!
The most common trait of the historical mate is exaggeration. An exaggerator is quickly spotted by his/or / her frequent use of the words 'always" and "never." The exaggerators's statement looks like this: "You always come home late." "You never take out the trash." 'You always just sit on your duff and watch TV.." "You never want to talk about it." .......Those statement are pritty big assumptions. Even if you are home on time 9 times out of 10, the exaggerating spouse can make it seem as if you are late five days a week. You may take the trash out 99 times out of 100, but forget once and your historical mate gose through the roof remembers the 6 times between the years of 2006 and 2009 when you forget to take out the trash....... It's almost intolerable for me and or you to experience this aloneness, I would say. Aloneness is almost like rejection. It's almost like death. Right now, not just low self-esteem, a lot of tortured feelings and termendous feelings of inferiority. Every now and then they go dead, that is how I can feel. They'er rev ved up in a sense. There's not an easy way for most people to understand that. however, I recoginze, I perhaps know for sure ... when I come to meet people in my kwantlen polytechnic university, or other social places like my love for politics and executive meetings, I tell my heart that I can't let those people in to my real life as it is, because I tell me brain to think it's better if thay don't know what is realy going on in my world, I guess I get worry about it , I worry that I could and would Care...about the friend, just to have them say get out of my life............. the details are, I can't stand my reasoning process, pushing people away knocks me down, (mentaly) this has done nothing good for my personal feelings. all in all....... I've become this way.......but I want more out of my life.. I want to try a new approach, like someone else could in the way they do life, The reason?.......I find it difficult.........I feel at times I'm losing, Kristen. (do you feel the same way?)