I Try...

I was given a strange childhood... I was born waay out in the boondocks with only my family to see...
I was homeschooled and never saw anyone my own age...
well I did know some kids but they weren't my friends exactly...
I never saw a girl until I was 15...
I have to say that to this day that has effected my sexuality...
I like women but there are these other issues....
I can't stand people anymore...
I hate there smelly bodies, the way they stand so close and it took me forever to kiss... to me mouths were for eating... not kissing... it wasn't innocence... a childhood in solitary confinement changed me...
and I hated it... I still hate being alone and not making friends...
I was liked by a lot of women but I was accused so often of being gay because I would never do anything with them that no one ever talked to me, male or female...
I had no family because my father had blocked my calls...
After three years I was so desparate I sent a letter to someone I never met and enclosed $40 dollars just so they would return a letter to me....
I just wished I was different... it's too late for me now.... I'll never be a social animal, I will never be the type of person to be the life of the party... it's just too damn late for me....
TheDaken TheDaken
31-35, M
1 Response Sep 24, 2012

… It's never too late… ^^