For 14 years i have been married to a man whos mouth and off the wall temper has more than once.... ripped my heart out and left me lifeless. I have tried many time to get rid of him, but he refuses to leave.... i am one heck of a good wife....i work, clean, feed and wait on him, whole-heartly, why leave someone like me. I am a soft hearted woman but a Fool. Always being a crowd pleaser and never putting myself first.
It all changed last night after him being on a drunken roll for a week! The ugliness and hurtful behavior and words he dished out was all i could handle.
You see we have had company from out of state vacationing with my husband and i. They are reallly bad folks but they are my husband kin. I am the hostess with the mostess. huh.... anyway, my husband had an audience this week and he really was on his soapbox telling all how messed up i am and all that is wrong with me. I can't even explain how sick i felt listening to this.... in my face thinky! ....ALL lies....
I asked two days ago for these out of towner to leave, they were making everything dangerous for me! They refused and then went and told my husband what i asked of them. All hell broke out! He came home from work in a state of mind that would scare satan himself. wow.....
He began threaten my life, said he was going to gut my animals so i could come home to dead babies. sigh.............. Then he said he was going to burn me out.... he "tried" to light a fire by the back door. ........ Let me add some history here..... in 2004, my son comes home from Iraq and this same day, due to electric short my house burnt to the ground. I lost Everything! The worse thing to do to me was what he tried to do!
I picked up a 7 foot walking stick and .... stopped him!!!!!!!!!!!! I maybe going to jail, he reported me to the police. I gave my outlook on the crap that went down. No arrests were made. Yes, i hurt him badly! The shame of my uncontrolled temper will haunt me for the rest of my life. I can not hurt even an ant.... :~(
So, today is the first day of the rest of my life. I can live in peace now. Never again will i worry or cry or stay sick from his abuse!
My decision to stay in my marriage has been made!!! My lawyer will handle the rest. My husband is ..... no more!
Now for the next chapter of my life.