So today was our 6th wedding anniversary. He got sick yesterday after work. Maybe heat exhaustion...he works in the sun...and hes fat as heck! lol no really 290 and a bit over 6 feet tall. Anyways....no card, no present and no sex for years! I get lectured by a friend of his on how to compromise in a relationship. Fo rlike 30 minutes this guy talks to me about how couples giv up to easy on their marriages. Hes been divorced twice! Anyways so I am telling him nicely that I have put plenty of effort into my amrriage with his buddy. Hes telling me a man needs his woman to support him yadayadyyadadada and ona dn on. I loose it and yelled at him finally. I had to make ammends fo rit too. All signs point to divorce but I am going to move out for ahile first so he doesnt go ballistic on me. I am so over it. I used to get sad and angry over things like being hung up on on our anniversary and no card or present. Im not angry today. I just realize that he doesnt love me like I had hoped he would. He never will. He may be incapable but I hop enot fo rhis sake. I remember what being in love feels like....it was with my husband.....it was always painful with him though....maybe i didnt ever relaly love HIM. I loved the idea of an alternate him. A better him that would have loved me because the alternate him has a functioning brain. Seriously. if you knew me you would be perplexed as my plight. Why on earth have I let things go on this long? My daughter...that's why at this point. Before then??? who knows....probably because I was supposed to be paired up with my daughter. Go dknew we needed each other. I'm on my way to being me again and I am excited. I gues I can quit this group now because I have decided not to staty in my marriage. I like jsut using EP as a diary that talks back to me. My sexless marriage story has the details of my relationship.